Murakami quotes I like

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional."
— Haruki Murakami

"I dream. Sometimes I think that's the only right thing to do."
— Haruki Murakami (Sputnik Sweetheart)

"But I didn't understand then. That I could hurt somebody so badly she would never recover. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair."
— Haruki Murakami

"...There are ways of dying that don't end in funerals. Types of death you can't smell."
— Haruki Murakami (Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman: 24 Stories)

"With each passing moment I'm becoming part of the past. There is no future for me, just the past steadily accumulating."
— Haruki Murakami

"Love can rebuild the world, they say, so everything's possible when it comes to love."
— Haruki Murakami

"No mistake about it. Ice is cold; roses are red; I'm in love. And this love is about to carry me off somewhere. The current's too overpowering; I don't have any choice. It may very well be a special place, some place I've never seen before. Danger may be lurking there, something that may end up wounding me deeply, fatally. I might end up losing everything. But there's no turning back. I can only go with the flow. Even if it means I'll be burned up, gone forever."
— Haruki Murakami

"I may be the type who manages to grab all the pointless things in life but lets the really important things slip away."
— Haruki Murakami (Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman: 24 Stories)

"and it came to me then
that we were wonderful travelling companions
but in the end, we were no more but lonely lumps of metal in their own separate orbits
from far off, they looked like beautiful shooting stars
when the orbits that these two satellite of ours, happened to cross paths, we could be together
maybe even open our hearts to each other
but that was only for the briefest moment
the next instant, we would be in absolute solitude
until we'd burn up and became nothing"
— Haruki Murakami (Sputnik Sweetheart)

"We knew exactly what we wanted in each other. And even so, it ended. One day it stopped, as if the film simply slipped off the reel. "
— Haruki Murakami (Dance, Dance, Dance)

"two people can sleep in the same bed and still be alone when they close their eyes"
— Haruki Murakami (Hardboiled Wonderland and the End of the World)

It was as if my whole life revolved around trying to judge the right point in a conversation to say goodbye."
— Haruki Murakami (Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman: 24 Stories)

"Unfortunately, the clock is ticking, the hours are going by. The past increases, the future recedes. Possibilities decreasing, regrets mounting."
— Haruki Murakami (Dance, Dance, Dance)

"Being with her I feel a pain, like a frozen knife stuck in my chest. An awful pain, but the funny thing is I'm thankful for it. It's like that frozen pain and my very existence are one.
The pain is an anchor, mooring me here."
— Haruki Murakami (Kafka on the Shore)

"I wondered if she was trying to convey something to me, something she could not put into words - something prior to words that she could not grasp within herself and which therefore had no hope of ever turning into words."
— Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)

"We might have ended up happy. But we´d already passed that point. That possibility was sealed up, frozen solid. And it would never open up again."
(Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman)

Post-break-up remedies

When somebody you love breaks up with you it always hurts. But what do you do, when you cannot be angry at that person(or anyone else for that matter), you lose the ability to cry after few days, you simply do not know, how to deal with all the emotions that are deep inside of you? Staying in and eating ice cream(in my case substituted with vinegar crisps) did not work and going out, drinking heavily and partying did not help either. SO what now? Being this deeply sad is exhausting me and I certainly cannot carry on with this insomniac lifestyle..

I had spent several days thinking about the question bothering many people and very popular topic for debates(although contenwise these debates usually suck) - Is it better to love and lose than never love? And I finally reached a conclusion - of course it is better to love and lose than never love. And the best option of all is to love and never lose:-D

Happiness.

Once upon a time a girl fell in love. Her brain stopped working, she started feeling that she should change her hair colour to blond and she started changing. May be she is just a fool, but she can´t help it. She is happy. For the first time in her life.(Which is sad and great at the same time.)

This relationship stuff is a mutherf.cker

My mind is stuck. Stuck on one piece of information, analyzing it from all the angles possible. When did I turn into this obsessive irrational person? I myself do not know the exact point, but I guess it has a lot to do with certain someone. And now I am not sure what way to react. The worst thing is that I do not know what would be rational and what irrational anymore. Is it rational to run or is it just a way to let the fear inside me show itself. Is it irrational to stay once you know sthg or would it be totally rational to stay because in reality feelings and experiences have not changed? Are we who we were and what we did in the past or are we just who we are now? Dammit

I guess people are bound to be surprised every day. Some surprises are bigger, some are small, some are pleasant, some not so much.
But I guess I will stick to Carrie Bradshaw: "Men who have had a lot of sexual partners are not called sluts. They're called very good kissers, a few are even called romantics."

Občas člověka něco zaskočí.
Vždycky jsem si říkala, že lidé, kteří na základě nějaké věty, pár slov, změní svůj pohled na vztah/práci/cokoliv, musí být blázni. Objektivní realita se nemění vyřčením nějakého výroku. Na druhou stranu se pak ale dozvím něco, co bych raději nevěděla, a co mě začne nutit přemýšlet a pochybovat o každé minutě. A to mi vlastně nebylo řečeno nic až tak zásadního nebo konkrétního.
Co způsobuje, že jsem tak snadno schopná začít pochybovat o věcech, které mi před 24mi hodinami přišly zcela jasné? Asi strach. Ale co to říká? Jsou pochyby jenom známka racionálního přemýšlení a opak slepé zamilovanosti nebo to ukazuje, že je něco špatně? A když se jednou objeví, jak se jich zbavit?

2 blogy

V průběhu posledního asi čtvrt roku mě zaujaly dva blogy, každý úplně jiný. Oba ale stojí za to!
http://expanze.blogspot.com/ je dosti syrový, nevím k čemu ho přirovnat, možná tak k Sexu ve městě, ale to není ani zdaleka přesně. Doporučuji číst chronologicky od nejstaršího k nejnovějšímu.
http://extra.cz/blog/ je úplně jiný šálek kávy(ne čaje!!!!). Čermáka asi zná hodně lidí, ale tady si na rozdíl od Reflexu přečtete i sloupky pro Sme a další..

Popis mé osoby, že nevím, co chci, ale vím, co nechci, poslední dobou není správný. Nejenže si někdy myslím, že vím, co chci, abych následně zjistila, že to vůbec není tak jasné, ale někdy ani nevím, co nechci. Kdybych věděla, co chci, tak by bylo hodně věcí o kus jednodušších a nebylo by tak snadné mě svést ze správného směru. Každopádně doufám, že jsem na cestě k tomu, abych opravdu věděla, co chci a zároveň i to, co nechci, jako normální rozumný člověk. Jedna část mě má pocit, že nikdy vědět nebude. A jedna, že už ví. Ale zjevně se v tom dobře potácím.

Zjevně jsem živočich s proměnou nedokonalou.