Jogging is fun

Je skvělý pocit, když člověka přestane bolet každý další krok a může konečně pořádně běžet. Vzdálenosti, které se zdály být nemožnými, jsou překonány a laťka se posunuje. Noční můry z 1,5 km v hodině tělocviku na střední se zdají najednou býti vskutku směšnými. Jen kdyby se nezačaly ozývat klouby(kolena a kotníky). Asi se mi mé staré tělo snaží říct, že bych měla pořídit běžecké boty(ne obyč tenisky, ve kterých běhám teď). Anebo, že je na čase začít holdovat chrupavkám. Tak či tak, chci běhat dáááál!

Decision to start jogging every day was definitely the right one. It might actually solve all my problems, from insomnia to low blood pressure and fatigue. But I should have started slowly. After jogging every day for four days, my legs are sore and I can barely walk without looking like a crippled person.. Even though waking up an hour early just to go jogging before leaving to spend the whole day at the lab, made me feel like the hip modern woman who does it all. I want to experience that feeling again, but I should probably wait for my (almost non-existent) muscles to heal.

Sometimes the mind does what it wants without taking the heart into consideration. It wanders into the land of memories, of things long gone. Thinking about the what ifs and the maybes is painful for so many reasons, but the mind does it anyway. Sometimes, like right now, it is when I am conscious, sometimes it is during the so-valued sleep. I am not sure which is worse. When it happens when I am awake but I get the opportunity to overcome these thoughts by sleeping or when I am not in control and I cannot really blame myself for dreaming, but thoughts considered in sleep linger in my mind all of the following day?

It all seems so stupid
It makes me want to give up
But why should I give up
When it all seems so stupid
(DM)

When at least 3 people independently reach the conclusion that I have the same gestures, the same way of expressing myself like the bad actress from Twilight, it makes me wanna shoot myself. Kristýna is not Kristen and I am not waiting for a handsome vampire. How does one change her gestures?