Still standing

In the past the hardest thing for me to imagine (and to do) was being in a serious committed relationship. But living through the worst month of my life made me reconsider that. It would be nice to be with someone I could lean on. Especially since my friends (when I tell them all the stuff that has been going on) don´t know how to act around me and that makes me feel like a leper at times. Yes, I would not know how to act were the situation reversed, but I have not become mentally ill or retarded and I don´t need anything but the sense of normality and/or someone to get terribly drunk with.