Oh, this is going to be fun!

So this 22 year old girl, not a virgin, who drinks alcohol, who does not believe in any god or religion, is pro-choice, pro gay marriage and does not keep the sabbath holy is going to attend a marriage ceremony of two deeply religious Roman Catholics.

Morality in health care

The health care system in the Czech republic is deeply flawed - everybody is trying to get preferential treatment based on either who they know or even worse by bribery. I have never been able to do or tolerate either. Yes, I wouldn´t know how to bribe anyone, but I also don´t think that that is the way the system should work. It should distribute health care based on who needs it the most. (Yes, there should be the option to pay for higher quality materials or more complicated and expensive surgeries that are not paid for by health insurance, but you should not be able to threaten someone´s life or well being by getting ahead of them in the queue just because you know someone in the hospital).
The problem is that when somebody you love needs a surgery, the persuation goes to hell and the black-and-white world suddenly seems to turn into all shades of grey. Many people(myself included) would do anything to get their loved ones the best care they can get. It might be the reason why the system is not working, but doing your best to protect your family and friends is inevitably a part of human nature. As long as doctors and hospitals are willing to tolerate this corruption, nothing is going to change.
Having one member of my family in the hospital right now and another going there in a few days time I should be happy about the status quo(my family has a few doctor friends) and I am. It´s just that it seems like I failed at the same time.

Neuvěřitelné se stalo skutkem

Poprvé ve svém životě se po několika dnech strávených se svojí matkou necítím hůř ale mnohem mnohem líp. Nějak jsem začala být optimistická a věřím, že babička bude v pořádku. Netrápí mě, že nevidím lidem do hlavy a že nevím, co vlastně chtějí říct vágními, matoucími nebo protichůdnými prohlášeními a činy. Jestli chtějí, abych něco pochopila, musí to mé natvrdlé hlavě naservírovat blbuvzdorným způsobem. Nestresuju se ze 2 zkoušek a 1 zápočtu v příštích třech dnech. Neřeším podivné sny, které se mi uplynulý týden zdály a přisuzuji je nejprve lékům a bolesti a pak kocovině. Úspěšně se mi podařilo zapomenout na vraždu slepýše, kterou jsem asi včera spáchala pouhým něžným dotykem. Odmítám řešit booty calls, které má vůbec někdo tu drzost udělat po dvou rande. Ať si myslí kdo chce co chce, I am not that kind of girl.
Ať si mě vesmír klidně snaží rozhodit, já se nenechám!
(Nikdy jsem si nemyslela, že by takový efekt mohla mít zrovna moje rodina.)

You know that few really shitty days when everything just seems to go the worst possible way? Well, I must have pissed the universe off real bad. I am so worried about my grandma who was admitted to the hospital and don´t know how to deal with the possibility of losing her.
In times like this there are moments when I just wish to hide from the world in somebody´s, well, anybody´s arms. But then I remind myself that that´s not the right way to deal with stuff and that I cannot go into hiding. Even if it means hurting more, I cannot run away.

"Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qemWRToNYJY

There are the memorable firsts in a girl´s life. First bra, first kiss, first boyfriend, first love(the order is strictly optional)... But then comes one first of a very different kind - the one when a guy starts saying that his girlfriend and him don´t really get along very well, that she does not understand him, does not get him. That he just needs someone to talk to because she no longer listens. That he needs a friend and that it should be you.
Makes me wonder if women are really dumb enough to buy that.

What running does to a person..

I could not help but observe all the magic that relatively simple and undemanding thing like running can do. It helped with the syndrome of cold feet(..., and cold hands), insomnia, weight, strength and stamina. Plus I finally felt like I was alive.
The terrible part of this story is that as soon as I have made a few-day pause(debate tournament), old issues started to reappear - especially the insomniac part of me was awakened. So it seems that running is not just a pleasure or simply a physical activity that everyone should engage in from time to time, but it also became a necessity for me.

I am not sure how to describe this without sounding hypocritical/unable to see myself in the mirror..

Politeness is a value put aside these days. Even those, who claim that they abide by its rules, often seem to forget, what is polite and what is not.
In discussions about current affairs, political situation, possible changes or laws proposed etc., be it in the debating club, a coffee place or in a pub, it is ok to disagree, let the other party know about that and argue passionately about the aspects of the issue.
However when it comes to normal every-day interactions, I get (not sure how to describe the feeling exactly) disgruntled by other people´s need to attack the views of the other person/insist on knowing 100% that someone is wrong/knowing what is right for them and the others etc. Even when talking about some book or a movie, it is rather unnecessary to engage in a conflict - instead of saying "I know you are wrong", why don´t people bother to try to go for the more agreeable "I think it happened differently/In my opinion the zombies tried to eat the heroin´s head because she reminded them of the father that molested them/I don´t think she has apologized for her actions...".
It might sound very weird coming from me, since (at least to some) I seem to be an angry person, who argues about everything. If that is the case, I am sorry for being annoying and/or overbearing.